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5th grade, year two. . . I really haven’t written much these last couple months primarily because this year has been tough.  When I have time to blog, I’m usually tired and often frustrated.

First, I still love teaching and Lincoln; and I especially love my students. They have some of the most creative personalities. With their creativeness comes energy, but some days though. . . it is straight up disrespect and disregard for instructions. Sometimes I catch myself wondering what was the point in even giving the instructions. Or even wondering what is the point of teaching this period. I want to challenge them but they don’t listen. How can I provide challenging activities if they are always choosing to not follow instructions?

Then, the 2×4 hit me over the head last week.  At an especially frustrating moment, I felt God speak into my thoughts and say, “Exactly Lisa.  This is exactly what I feel with you. You’re so stubborn, so disobedient, you’re so rude to me. I give you instructions, speak love into your life, but you don’t actively listen. You have ears but don’t hear.  Your disobedience is always before me, repent, obey, and see the way I will work through you!”

I think God gave me this class this year, in order that I might have a glimpse into His frustration with me. And as the year has only begun, I’m sure God will have a lot to say about they way I live.

So, I’ve been struggling though this the last several weeks and have actively been trying to give each today to God and ask his presence and wisdom in my room.  This morning started off rough with a particularly challenging student after he chose to disregard my instructions and then lied to me about it. He made it a point to say that he didn’t “lie” he only told half of the truth. (insert eye roll) I just felt so disappointed in that moment. I tried to talk it through with him, but I could see he had his wall up and was just trying to come up with possible excuses. I have a policy that if student’s change their behavior they can work back into the positive, and Emilio really turned things around after that point. Last period we have Bible class and I had them work in partners to go through some of the book questions. I don’t usually go though workbook pages, but I’m so glad I did today. While they were working in the book I just strolled between picnic tables and answered questions and talked about the verses with them.  I came to his table and they were stuck on Isaiah 14:12-15.  The questions asked the students to identify what phrase Satan said over and over and try to define what sin/attitude he had.  With a little guidance, he understood immediately Satan’s pride and we were able to relate it back to student’s pride in the classroom.  That pride is having an attitude that what he (and other students) do and say is more important that the instructions given, or someone sharing in class. I showed him the choice that Satan had and that we have each day. A choice to be obedient and humble before God, or a choice to exalt ourselves above God, proudly saying we know best.  I really think he got it; he remained quiet the rest of the day, and seemed to be in his own world thinking.

Later in class I addressed the same questions identifying who and where Satan came from. I illustrated their choice and compared it to Satan’s.  I held up a piece of clay, someone was at that moment playing with, and asked them how they would feel/respond if the piece of clay started shouting, “I’m going to be more powerful than you! You don’t know me!” The class exploded in laughter, further emphasizing how ridiculous that would be. How could a made object claim to be more powerful, more knowledgeable, more important than its maker?  God didn’t laugh though when Satan rebelled against him, he certainly doesn’t laugh when we choose to rebel against him.

From the beginning of time until now, the choice is still the same, the attitudes are still the same.  Choose to humbly submit before your creator or proudly exalt that you are know better.

Once again, I don’t know how much of that lesson God was directing for my students but was aimed at me. Bethany sent me this today, not even knowing I was going to post this today. So perfect. 🙂


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