Archive for February, 2013

God My Rock by Brenton Brown

I have nothing of importance to say, so I leave you with a song I love. Enjoy!


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LOVE- So what is it?

Over the last week my class has been looking at the condition of the human heart. (Tough subject… even for me.)  Today it culminated to the idea of real love.  Here is the passage we looked at.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.    (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

We looked at it, discussed it, I think they understood it, I moved on with my thoughts.

After school I headed to the orphanage, alone.  The word “alone” is significant because I haven’t really been going much this year. I did several times at the beginning of the year and had brought a couple other girls with me.  Tutoring started up, extra Spanish lessons began, and sadly my motivation dwindled. Don’t misunderstand, my care for the boys has always been there, but I had some frustrations and I simply allowed other activities to become more important and therefore consume my time. Without batting too many eyelashes, three months passed.

A couple of weeks ago I sat down with a dear friend and we talked about the orphanage and I was finally forced to be honest about my frustrations and reasons for not going. Concerned with similar things we came up with some ideas and passed them along to others with more authority.  So we began last week, not wholly successfully but at least we started.

Back to this word, “alone.” I ventured there alone today, nervous, for how I would be received. See, last week I completely understood my place with some of the boys. They resent me. Truly and fairly openly, I am not worth a moment of their time. Of course they wouldn’t say any such thing, but knew it and I understand it.  I abandoned them, and why. . . because I’m selfish and insecure. Ah.

So alone, feeling insecure and selfish of my time I went to the orphanage knowing I wasn’t going to be well received. I wish at this point I could tell you that I was wrong and that they were excited to see me, and I was able to pour love into each of their lives. . . but that isn’t how human relationships work. I went. . . it was awkward, challenging, frustrating, exhausting, and I’m not sure I have earned any trust back.

I write all of this to finally come to my point, how blessed am I (we) that God is not like these human relationships. Each time I turn away from Him: abandon reading His word, get sidetrack while talking to him, ignore what he says to me; but find my way back I’ve experienced His warm and welcoming embrace.  I praise God that true love IS His nature, it is in Him where I am welcomed back.  If you read this, it is my prayer that you would experience love in the One who is Himself LOVE. Know that no matter the distance of time, depth of the sin, or any other logical excuse; He is always standing at your door knocking. Just waiting for you to open the door so he can embrace you.

Happy Valentines Day.

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La Baranca

A few weeks ago, I went for a lovely hike with a few other teachers.  Here are a few pictures! ImageImageImageImageImage

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